I am home

I am home, and now it is time for the next step. Realistically, I should be looking for a job to begin slowly integrating myself with the rest of society and have my memories of YWAM be just that: memories of a time where I met God radically and knew what the glory of the Lord looked like. Wait, what? No no no...that does not seem right at all. I have a fire burning inside of my chest, unsatisfied by the prospect of having to contain all that I am into what normality looks like to our society. Nope. Not now. I have a message on my heart and I have the best way to get it out there this up coming January.

During debrief week, which was a time where my entire school could get together for one last week and enjoy each other's presence, I began to realize that not going to the UK for the SBS was may not had been what God wanted. Just like Mary, I had let Lazarus died and put him in a tomb without believing that God would be able to come around and do what he does. I received the verse John 11:40, in which Jesus said, "Did I not tell you if you believed you would see the glory of God?" So...with a little gentle, but really good, rebuking from the big guy, I walked into the next session of debrief not knowing what was going to happen.

"My soul being shaken, I managed to see that which could be falter in my heart. My very essence felt the fire on this calling, so now my feet journey forth to grasp hold of it and seize this time..."

Aaron and Ronda Barker will be leading the April Quarter Call2All DTS in 2011, and they will be doing a call to missions tour on the west coast for 3-4 weeks in January. When I heard what they were doing, my spirit jumped violently around my body as I felt God telling me that a new chapter in my life was about to begin and I also felt as if He was telling me to go do the tour and staff the school. As of right now, I am still praying about it but I feel peace, even excited, about doing it. Only God will know at this point.

That's all I have to say about that.